Wednesday, February 19, 2014
Commenting failure
Why aren't my comments posting on anyone's blogs?? I swear, I'm reading, and I'm trying to comment, but none of my comments are going through. :-( What to do??
Saturday, February 1, 2014
Pushing through (And it's already February?)
This year is flying by already. I cannot believe that it's already February. Next thing you know, it'll be June. (And I'm okay with that. I means summer vacation, warmth and sunshine, and likely a beach vacation. Yespleaseandthankyou.)
I decided to ditch the nursing idea. The amount of work I'd have to do just to possibly be accepted into a program just doesn't seem worth it. Plus the years of schooling to follow don't seem appealing. So, I'm just pushing through. I suppose I'll stick this out as long as they'll have me.
In some personal news, I am having a very hard time dealing with some recent information. To put it all out there, we've been trying to conceive for over a year now. My husband did some testing earlier this week, and his count is super low. This is incredibly depressing for various reasons. I have always wanted to be a mother. I used to want ten kids (before I started teaching and before I realized how expensive it is to have that many kids!), but I'm come down to a reasonable 2-3. Heck, I'll even take one. With this news, even one may not be possible. I know there are things that may help (We see a specialistnext this month to explore our options.), but I'm pretty sure all of the procedures are super invasive, and I don't know if I could handle it all. (I'll write later about my self-diagnosed anxiety.) If it came down to needing a sperm donor, I don't think my husband would ever agree to that. The only person he would consider using is his brother (which I would actually be okay with), but again, the invasiveness of it all disturbs me. *Sigh* I don't feel like talking about this any more right now. I just hope that there's some kind of hope for us. It's the only thing I've ever really wanted in my whole life.
In the meantime, I continue to push through the days, trying not to be down about life or work.
-D
I decided to ditch the nursing idea. The amount of work I'd have to do just to possibly be accepted into a program just doesn't seem worth it. Plus the years of schooling to follow don't seem appealing. So, I'm just pushing through. I suppose I'll stick this out as long as they'll have me.
In some personal news, I am having a very hard time dealing with some recent information. To put it all out there, we've been trying to conceive for over a year now. My husband did some testing earlier this week, and his count is super low. This is incredibly depressing for various reasons. I have always wanted to be a mother. I used to want ten kids (before I started teaching and before I realized how expensive it is to have that many kids!), but I'm come down to a reasonable 2-3. Heck, I'll even take one. With this news, even one may not be possible. I know there are things that may help (We see a specialist
In the meantime, I continue to push through the days, trying not to be down about life or work.
-D
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